Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again. If you kill yourself you will change somebody’s world. That’s right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memories. They won’t be able to go near where you lived, even your town will hold memories. Listening to the radio, they’ll hear that song, remember, that song you sang with them once? They’ll step past your locker every day and wonder why you are not there. Why are you not there? Do you want to be responsible for your family members, the people who love you, crying every night? For your sister’s or brother’s losing part of who they are? Your suicide is going to effect most deeply those who care about you most. That’s not right. One of your friends may break down, and just like you, their world will be dark. The pain you are in is awful, but why pass it on to hundreds of people around you, when you could try your hardest to work through it? Your family will be paranoid. Suddenly everyone will be talking about them. Do you want to be known as “the kid who killed themself?” People you never knew will be crying when they hear what you’ve done. Yes, they will be effected. Everyone around you will stop and think, “Was there something I could have done?” Suddenly the people of your world are dying with guilt. All those little hints you gave, they’ll remember them. Oh yes, and it will torture them all the time. Your friends will think of suicide. Your closest friends are likely to go into a depression like the one that claimed your life. How will they cope without you? This will break them, for the rest of their lives. And let’s not forget the people who will plan your funeral. Your closest friends and family picking out songs for you, photos of you. Crying all the night before, and all the day of your funeral. And all the night after. In fact, they will cry now more than you ever did. Could they have saved you? They’ll be angry. Oh yes. Why didn’t you tell them? They loved you. And now it’s too late. They’ll be angry with you because they know, they know you could have gotten through it. Then they’ll be angry with themselves because they may have been able to save you if only they knew. And one day, one day years from now, they’ll remember you. They will all still remember you. The girl that sat up the front of your class; she’ll remember you. The bus driver you saw every morning; he’ll remember you. That little girl you sat with on the bus once, The kid you lent money to at the shop, all your siblings friends, the people that you don’t see, but that see you everyday they will all remember you. And every single one of them will wonder; why? But imagine your family. You are part of them. Without you, something is missing. If you killed yourself, then part of them dies, too. They are incomplete. Every family gathering will be missing something. The photos on the wall are suddenly all cold reminders of what you did. Who goes through your bedroom? Who cleans out your locker? Who calls the school to tell them one of their students has died? Who tells the students? Who calls the funeral directors? Who arranges a coffin for you? Who calls your best friend to tell them you’re dead?? Who finds you? Please, there are other ways out. I know sometimes the struggle is very, very hard. But it’s not worth giving up on life. Life is all we have, life is everything. Its the beautiful moments, and the sad ones. Please, don’t give up on all those around you. You can make it through. My teacher said this about her father, who committed suicide, “I understand that the pain is overwhelming, but I will never forgive him for the pain he has caused others. It was just selfish. If you kill yourself you spread the suffering among thousands of people. It doesn’t only affect those around you but everyone who has ever come in contact with you.” Please, keep fighting. You can get through this and see that there is life after what you’re facing now. It may be hard, but you’ll get there, and when you do you will appreciate it so much more. I understand that most people know that suicide effects others, but please keep this in mind if you’re ever feeling so low. Give people the chance to help you.
i’m gonna tell you a story, a short story.. but it’s my story. Not many people know this about me.. no one that doesn’t have the password to my personal. but here i go anyway.. not too long ago, i went through the pain of everything crushing down around me. i could not handle the shit going on in my mind. every night.. i’d think about what if i killed myself right now? i could do it.. i tried once.. but a phone called saved me.. but that was long ago. anyway, for example.. the other night i didnt know what to do, i was getting ready to end everything.. and i didnt want to call my boyfriend, cause i’d be waking him up to tell him i loved him then tell him to go back to sleep, or i didnt wanna call any of my friends.. cause they’d all be asleep at that time. but like i was saying, i didnt have the heart to get help.. but one night, my boyfriend knew something was wrong.. and god knows what was going through his mind when he read my personal.. but he called me.. and we just talked.. i cried.. he cried.. and he talked about how much it would affect him if i wern’t here. after that.. i was heart broken hearing him talk like that.. i never really get that outta him.. him waking up saved me that night. maybe i wouldnt have gone through with it.. but maybe i would have.. who knows. but no.. if you feel like no one cares.. someone does. you just have to let them know that somethings wrong. no, telling someone wont fix it.. i’m still not fixed yett… but it will make you realize someone cares.. someone needs you. someone wants you.
-I’m always here to talk. I love you.♥ But rememeber one thing; It may be stormy now, but it can’t rain forever.
*And no. I did not write any of the bold beginning writing. I saw this on a website a while ago and kept it ever since. If I could, I would credit the person, but it was so long ago. So thank you whoever wrote this.
Here are any numbers you may need for something:
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-439–4253
